Psycho Mom

Thats what I told Nick I wanted to be, 'One of those psycho moms!'

Growing up I had a friend who wasnt allowed to watch care bears, or things like that...
As they represented the fruit of the spirit, and might confused a young child in the Christian home.
I thought it was funny. At the time, and up until a few weeks ago.

Though I dont plan to go as far as cutting care bears out of our lives,  Im planning on taking A LOT of stuff out.

You see Anberlyn has been saying 'stupid' a lot. I try to explain its not a good word, and she should not say it. Then yesterday we were sitting and watching Toy Story with her, Buzz and Woody were fighting and Woody called Buzz a moron and stupid idiot... Hmmmm Anberlyn is a sponge, she absorbs everything, I think Toy Story is a super cute and fun movie, BUT I think its gonna be put on hold, for a couple years. When she can understand more. When she can make wiser decisions to what she is allowed to say. You may think thats a lot to put on a child, but why put a limit on her?

OR you may be thinking that Im a crazy lady, stupid isnt a bad word, its really not that big of a deal. She could be saying words that are a lot worse! VERY true.

You see, I want to keep my daughters innocent as LONG AS POSSIBLE! I want to shelter them! I want them the be kids! I want their world to be lolli pops and gum drops! and STUPID does not exist in that world!

I also DO NOT want them to be naive, and they wont be, but there is a time and a place for that. An almost 4 year old, is not that time or place!

Having 3 beautiful little girls is a scary little world for me. I am doing my best!

SO here I go, going through their DVDs and hiding the ones I dont think they should watch just yet, if that makes them uncool with their (or my) friends.... Thats ok with me!!

Here is a GREAT site to help you decide, its movie reviews, by Christians, Plugged In. There is also and app! (they have a section for music, video games and TV as well)

Rapping about RAB

One of my bestest friends works hard.
She is a mom of four, {two of which are living in heaven}
She is a wife. A teacher. She is so many things.
This amazing lady is working SOOOO hard so she can be a stay at home mommy.
With working behind her sewing machine when she can.
To be able to do that, she needs your help.
Will you help spread the word about her business?

She has made such great things, one of my favorites is the Artfolio!!!
Anberlyn has the original, and LOVES it.
Its perfect to take to appointments, like the Dr.

I just recently bought one for myself, to take to my prayer group, and whatnot, to take notes, and doodle!

Kristen is going to do a HUGE! Im talking GINORMOUS! giveaway when she hits 500 fans on her FB! I know this can be done, I would LOVE it if you went over and 'LIKE' her page!
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Im Tired

Soooo tired.
I cant wait to sleep.
Its a wonderful thought, sleep.
One day, I will be able to, but thats not my today.
My today is my children.
The loves of my lives.
Cuddling in the middle of the night.
Comforting.
Feeding.
These moments are gonna fly by.
Im doing my best not to be upset about it.
Im doing my best to just be a mom.

I have a man, a WONDERFUL man.
He doesnt expect much from me.
He understands how tired I am.
He loved me so much.
He is learning as well.
I know he to is tired.
He works SOOOO hard.

He works, so I can be tired at home with my kids.
He works so I can stay in my PJs all day loving on them.
He works so hard, to give be the opportunity to see each and every milestone.
to be there to catch tears.
to kiss boo boos
to watch imaginations grow.
to watch friendships between siblings blossom.
To hug,
to kiss,
to be a mom!
To be a sleep deprived, headached, body aching MOM.

AND I wouldnt change it for the world!
ONE DAY my babies wont need me every waking and nonwaking moment of life.
ONE DAY they wont need me to suckle their noses, to open their snack, to wipe their bums.

When THAT day comes.....

I WILL SLEEP!

Need YOU to choose!

Do you ever wanna take a photo of your hair, and you just dont know how to pose.. What kinda facial expression should you have? lighting? Yeah, I have that problem (keeping nothing from you, scroll down, far, there is like 15 photos):

I do know NOT to take a photo from below, do that and Im welcoming double chin heaven all up on the photo....No one wants that... NO ONE!
ANY HOW!
My hair is currently, kinda the above color, I think its a little Oranger in person.
Im torn, on whether to change it....
I can keep it the above color for awhile longer, I do really like it.
I can go Red, like Red Red, like yeah, red, not red head orange red, like it is now, more crayon deep red...
OR I can go Black. With red chunks. Thats fun.
Its all fun.

I LOVE coloring my hair!

SO You pick! and I will color my hair whatever has the most votes!

a) Keep it as is for now
b) Crayon deep red
c) Black with colored chunks

Try to comment below here on the blog if you can and not FB, but if FB is all you can do, thats fine!

Thanks friends!

Self

Recently I read a blog, she said something about how she dresses for other women and not for her hubby. I thought about that. I thought about it for a long while. I do the same. Its SOOO hard. Im in a MOPS group, they ALL dress so very cute, the young marrieds group Im in, yup dress so cute. Every where I turn! I of COURSE HAVE to fit in. After that post, I decided to make a little change.

My hubby is a jean and T-shirt kinda guy. SO Ive been wearing just that, a normal every day t-shirt with jeans, and he has complimented me! WOOO A COMPLIMENT LOVE it!
Ive been way more comfortable, and WAY more me.
Its been great!

I had a little bit of a hard time going to MOPS and to Bible study like that... I pushed through it, and Im glad I did.

Here is the blog post I read, in case your interested : On My Mind

Oh and, my hubby also prefers no make-up and natural hair.... I dont think Im ready for that... I LOVE make-up and hair!

Hopscotch and Lollipops

So a few months ago a very good friend of mine contacted me and asked me to pick out a few fabrics, she was gonna create a dress line.
Im not gonna lie, at the time I was uber pregnant, tired, sick just plain over, I REALLY didnt want to do it, but I did, cuz I love her. I looked at the first page, picked 3 fabrics that were highlighted that day on the fabric site and was done.
I wasnt thrilled with my choices. kinda blah, kinda not me. I was gonna choose 3 different ones, never got around to it. I felt bad. ACTUALLY I felt TERRIBLE that I really didnt give thought, or put my heart into it, for my friend! UGH oh well.

SO now a few months later, Im not pregnant, well not with Penelope anymore anyway!
The dress line is COMPLETE! We did the photoshoot last week, the dresses are DARLING! Anberlyn is just the cutest in her little dress.
AND I LOVE the fabrics I ended up choosing, they go so well with one another, they are bright, but not overly, they are perfection!

GO Check it out, of course I recommend The Anberlyn dress, but they are all SOOO cute! Go look at them ALL here:


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Will you come back here and let me know what you think? 
I would LOVE to hear!
I will post more photos when I get them!

PS Im not pregnant, I just think Im funny! HAHAHA! ;oD

I like to vent

Has anyone said:
I have best friends. We've been through the world together, there is no more room for new friends. Now get comfortable and share your life, open up!

Yeah I shut down, walls went up. What do you do with that?

The last few months have been a huge battle for me..
Youve seen it. Ive written about it. a couple times.
WOE is me...

A couple things have happened.
Ive put myself in a bubble.
Im floating around.

Im oh so cautious about anything and everything Im saying.
If I say something dumb, I dwell on it for days.
Im so afraid of what others are thinking.
My friends.
Im afraid to get close to anyone.
Im afraid of getting hurt.

I dont want to be hurt.
I dont know how to be a friend.

I hate feeling stupid.
Im afraid of hurting someone else.
I dont want to do that.

Tonight at my agape group,
I said something.
Something I never thought before.
It just came out.

Im not trusting GOD!
Im not trusting Him to bring me a friend.
Im not trusting HIM!

Its not about numbers.
Its about a good small core group,
A group of 1, or group of 5.

Laughing. Crying. Honesty. Godliness.

It will be great.
My heart is out there.
Kinda.

Im putting it in the hands of my Heavenly Father.
This is hard.

I pray my bubble will pop, and I can take a huge step of faith! 

I like to vent here. I like to let it all out.
And if you feel like Im all woe is me..
Why are you writing about this again.

If by chance your rolling your eyes at me...
THEN dont read!
Its simple!

Thanks guys!
I kinda feel a little better!

Though, my heart is still a little broken..
and I dont know what to do...
Im learning to pray.
I think that is a good thing to do!

PS through this, my hubster and I have grown closer! He is truly my best friend! I love him so much!
Pssssssst.. another PS. No pity, Im not looking for that at all! If you wanna say a little prayer, sure, I just wanted to vent though.
Thanks :o)