Coffee Break

SORRY Im late!!! Life with kids, are we ever on time anymore....

If we sat down for coffee {I would exhale & smile in relief}, I would let you know how I'm not fond of hot drinks, give em to me iced or blended!
Really though, I think I would talk about how I sorta had a rough week. Monday was great a few friends came over and we had such a great time!!! It was much needed, loved giggling and painting nails! Needs to happen much more often.

Then emotions took over.

I got upset, upset over how much people were looking at the good works Anberlyn did last week. Looking at how great her heart is. I am overly proud of her, and who God is making her to be, but I guess I was hoping people would see the bigger pictures, that their hearts would be led to help out the Collins Clan in their adoption. That just wasn't what happened. I was bummed about it. Gods working on me there. He is in control, Hes got this. I think I'm looking at them and thinking, wow this is what I'm gonna be going through in a few years! So it kinda hits close to home {ish}, and scares me, yet it excites me greatly!

Then Id talk about feelings, and girl stuff, and how overly emotional I can be! I don't like to talk about it though... So I don't, and won't today.


Id talk about how I just celebrated 9 years of marriage to my hot hubby, my best friend! We didn't do anything. To tell you the truth it kinda bummed me out. We were gonna take the kids to Chick Fil A for dinner, BUT they would not listen, would not get shoes on, would not do anything I asked them to do. So I made dinner, and we ditched going out.{Its hard with kids} Especially since Nick was already working late. He did go pick up carne asada fries {not my favorite}, from my favorite place after the kids went to bed.

{I should have been way more grateful that I have him home with me, that he puts up with me and all my issues {I have many} I should have just relished in the time spent sitting on the floor with him, I should have just been happy, but no, I pouted, I smiled, while crying on the inside, I was overly woman, and that wasnt fair to him... taken advantage of our moments without kids screaming and yelling.. If only I could go back....}

Id tell you Im exhausted, Anberlyn kept waking up, crying, she is currently afraid of the ceiling fan. Though Penelope is sleeping GREAT at night, from 8:30-9+ the others, mainly the biggest is waking up a lot. {she is currently afraid of a lot of things... Thats a whole nother post where I ask for help!}

Id tell you that I have been really great in keeping my kitchen clean this week. Making new habits, one room at a time. Once I have keeping the kitchen tidy for a bit, I will work on keeping another room clean. Its kinda great so far!
I would keep ranting and venting and woe is me 'ing' but I would truly want to know whats going on with you! Whats keeping you up at night friend?

Tater Tot Tuesday: Anberlyn

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My girl has a precious heart. I'm doing my best, but I know that God is truly the reason for it. I'm trying to teach her the good in giving, to give someone else the bigger half, the better toy, cuz thats what she would want someone to do for her. {{Yet, I do not want her to be walked all over}} So saying that go over HERE and read about something that my biggest girl did that brought tears pouring down my face, ~> COLLINS CLAN I'll wait for you to read it, go ahead.
Whats not said there, is that Anberlyn wore a butterfly dress when we went. She hadnt worn that dress since Easter, Christine pointed it out. I didnt put it on her on purpose. It was just warm and cute. Whats the big deal about a butterfly dress you ask, well go read HERE about it.. {{Then buy a puzzle piece or 2 or one for each person in your family, or dedicate them to friends, or adopted children you know... Anberlyn gave one of her pieces to each person in our family}} OK how cool is that!?!?!  How cool is our God!?!?
Ok so yesterday, I open my front door to find a box, a large box, OH YES, Anberlyn's Aunt rocks, My sister, she bought Anberlyn the magnadoodle she was saving for! I told Anberlyn to wait until nap time so she can play with it in peace and quiet, what does she say, "I want Emersyn to play with it first!" This toy that she has been wanting, saving for, she wants her little sister to have the opportunity to play with it before her!! I HAVE A HARD TIME WITH THAT! Something new and fun, all yours, to share... oh thats hard! Dont get me wrong though, Anberlyn DEFIANTLY has a hard time sharing, there are fights, there are tears and screams.
So thats my girl. My sweet sweet sweet innocent precious girl of God!


Her next goal is to grow her hair to her bottom and donate it to a child who has no hair! :o)

Coffee time

OOPS! I finished before you got here.... Sorry about that. I still have stuff on my mind, if you still wanna chat!
If we sat down for coffee, which we really should do! I love sitting in a coffee shop and chit chatting.
Anyway, my mind tends to wonder, so if we sat down for coffee, you would need to remind me to stay focused!

I would tell you that I went out with a friend earlier in the week, just her and I and just really got to talk and hang out, getting to know one another. It was pretty great. I would say that I love one on one times with friends, without the distraction of others. Don't get me wrong though, I love love love hanging out with a group of friends as well. This week, month even the last few months, I have really been able to weed out and truly see who my true friends are. Its been kinda cool. Ive been getting to know new friends, and getting deeper with old ones. God has been showing me some fun stuff.

I then may talk about homeschooling. Its becoming so real, so quickly. My good friend has been so on top of it this week, making me feel so behind, she is pushing me. Its good. I feel at a stand still till I get the curriculum I need it in hand to figure out my year. As most things I'm just waiting to finish up saving for it, next month it should be in my hands, and I couldn't be more excited.

Then while sipping on my next drink, green tea lemonade to be exact. I would talk about how Ive really been digging into who I wanna be. Who God has created me to be, and to JUST BE ME {YOU}. So I'm gonna start my weight loss process again, I have my wish list of clothing saved up, stuff I don't want to buy in large sizes, I'm excited for it! I know, silly! I think though it has me working toward something. OH and next week I get a hair cut... I don't know what I want done, what do you think? My goal is to grow it out, but I need something to hold me over. For sure tons of layers, but I'm struggling with the thought of cutting my tails off! Currently it drops down to a point on either side. Its my first time going to this person, so excited, and even more excited she works Saturdays!

Oh yes, my kids. One just bit the other, in defense. Oy vey! One managed to get the other in the little boobie and its swollen!

OK, back to our chat. I would let you know how excited I am that next week my amazing hubster and I celebrate 9 years of marriage! I would also mention how proud I am of my four year old. She is pretty amazing, but Ill talk about that later.
I think I can keep talking for the rest of the day, I'm talking up a storm. Sorry about that. How are you doing?

I posted today in response to Vessel Handmade's post, check it out, Coffee Date.

Smurfette

In high school lots of people called me that, Smurfette, my hair was the perfect shade of blue. Later in life I would marry my man Nick, with marrying him, I took on his friends, one of which was named,
S. Murphy {Smurphy, Smurf}. A little later Mr. Smurphy found his bride. She proudly took on the name Smurfette.

Now this bride of Smurfy is on of my best friends. I adore her and her love for her groom and children. I love her love for God. I LOVE her love for the hurting child. I admire her hard work and where it has taken her. I just love her and her family!

Have you figured out who Im talking about? Well lets keep going.
Rock a Bow started a few years back, and has grown like crazy. It has taken this family to places, I dont think she knew she was capable of. And today she has said good bye to Rock a Bow and a HUGE, GREAT BIG welcome to Vessel Handmade. I encourage you to go take a look at her new website, its SUPER PURDY, and go LIKE her on Facebook, follow her on twitter, take a look at what she is interested in on Pinterest! She is a pretty cool lady, worth getting to know, worth checking out her products, worth every second just taking a look, I guarantee you might swoon, just a little!

Thank you friends for going to take a look, it means a bunch to me!

Bubbles

Yesterday Anberlyn and I spent 5 1/2 hours at DCA/Disneyland! We had a blast! Anbo works on commission, she does work, she gets paid. She has been looking forward to heading over to the resort area and spending that hard earned dough. We spent probably and hour to and hour and a hald in shops, trying to decide what to buy, she wanted EVERYTHING! She ended up getting a set of Princess Aurora earrings with a necklace, a princess snow globe and a bubble gun, with $7 to spare!
That bubble gun was the BEST purchase! We heading over to the train, she had been begging to go on it, she HATED it! It was dark out, so on the train it was pitch black, she asked if she could use her bubble gun while riding, I whipped it out, attached the bubbles and handed it over. It lit up, and bubbles came POURING out of it! People, adults and kids a like were giggling, they loved it reflecting off the ceiling and the bubbles floating off!
As we departed the train, an employee looked at Anberlyn and said, 'Have a memorable rest of the night beautiful bubble princess!' Her face lit up! she said 'oh thats silly, bubble princess, maybe cuz I have a bubble gun he said that!
She walked the park with that thing, people popping them, yelling LOOK BUBBLES! Mainly adults. running over and dancing around in them! It was so fun!
We took the monorail to Downtown disney, then walked over to the parking structure, so many more people, again ADULTS LOVING the bubbles, kept commenting on her gun, and how cute she was!
Anbo, 'mom everyone loves my bubble gun, everyone should get one!'
I agree, turn disney into a bubble wonderland!

There is something about a shiny round bubble, that brings out the child in all of us! I love it! I love bubbles! So fun!

So much

So I havent blogged in a while, and blogger has CHANGED on me! Oh man am I confused! haha.
I have SOOOO much on my mind and heart, so much I wanna share, so much I just want to vent. Right now there are just two things Im gonna share. One being my friend Christine, oh man, when God calls her to do something she leaps, she jumps right in the deep end and GOES! God spoke to her recently, and she went with it. She is now in a life changing journey! Im so excited to watch and support her in this! Oh you wanna know whats going on... Wanna know what this amazing venture is... Here is her Blog, go find out, support her, leave her kind words, and most importantly, cover her and her family in prayer!!! Thank you friends!{{Click the link below, The Collins Clan}}

The Collins Clan 

The second thing is just this song I heard on the radio. I love the words. So I wanna share that with you.

Lyrics to Losing :

I can't believe what she said
I can't believe what he did
Oh, don't they know it's wrong
Don't they know it's wrong
Well maybe there's something I missed
But how could they treat me like this
It's wearing out my heart
The way they disregard

This is love or this is hate...
We all have a choice to make

Oh, Father wont You forgive them
They don't know what they've been doin' (oh no)
Oh Father, give me grace to forgive them
Cause I feel like the one losin'

Well it's only the dead that can live
But still I wrestle with this
To lose the pain that's mine
Seventy times seven times
Cause Lord it doesn't feel right
For me to turn a blind eye
Though I guess it's not that much
When I think of what You've done.

This is love or this is hate...
We gotta a choice to make

Oh Father won't You forgive them
They don't know what they've been doin' (oh no)
Oh Father, give me grace to forgive them
Cause I feel like the one losin'

Why do we think that our hate's gonna break a hard heart
We're rippin arms over wars that don't need to be fought
Cause pride wont let us lay our weapons on the ground
We build our bridges up but it's just to burn them down
We think our pain is own apologies and get them to stop
Well truth be told it doesn't matter if their sorry or not
Cause freedom comes when we surrender to the sound
Of Your mercy and Your grace, Father, send Your angels down

Oh Father wont you forgive them
They don't know what they've been doin'
Oh Father, give me grace to forgive them
Cause I feel like the one losin'
I feel like I've been losing

Oh Father wont you forgive them
They don't know what they've been doin'
Oh Father, give me grace to forgive them
Cause I feel like the one losin'
I feel like I've been losing

Oh Father, give me grace to forgive them
Cause I feel like the one losin'