Monday, April 11, 2011


Do you ever wanna just curl up in a ball and hide, because you have said or done something dumb?

Im pretty socially awkward.
I say dumb things all the time.
I say to much all the time.
Or I dont say anything at all.
I try to hard to be accepted, then pull away cuz I feel dumb.

I dont know that I said or have done anything recently, but I just have that feeling like I did.

People often think Im snobby, stuck up or upset, this is because when I dont feel comfortable around other, I shut down. This happens especially with groups of people who already know one another or when they are close and Im an outsider, not in the "click".

Its so funny how life is always related to "high school" when HS was only 4 years of our life (for most, more or less for others) What an impact it has on us, and our lives of 80 years (again give or take).

I dunno.
I guess at this moment I feel over taken, over whelmed and just a bit defeated by life and friends in general.

So if Im missing on FB or other social groups, Im feeling down.
Im sorry Im a crazy preggo lady!!! CRAZY!!! :o)

This is also probably the enemy attacking me where I feel weakest as I just came back from a retreat, where I focused on God. He is trying to tear me down.

I will try to write an overview of the weekend soon.
Thanks for listening!


  1. You are an awesome girl! I'm sorry you're feeling down. :( I have the same problems/fears with people. I really understand what you're feeling. I wish we didn't feel this way.

  2. you are one of the sweetest person I know! I hate the feeling of not "fitting" in.

  3. I'm sorry you are feeling down. I know exactly how you feel. I feel the same way often and well, it sucks! Cheer up :)

  4. I think as we all get older, we all feel this way quite often. I do as well

  5. This happens to me, I say the wrong thing or think I do all the time. It's so frustrating!

    I'm Sorry your going through this right now. I hope your day gets better. :)

  6. I think it's safe to say we all feel this way at times. I couldn't have said it better myself. For the record, I have never thought of you as awkward, snoby or upset. You are such a kind hearted, sweet, godly woman and I always have a great time around you. It's just the enemy placing doubts in your mind... he must see how awesome you are!

    I loved this post by the way! Not the fact that you are feeling down, but how open and an honest it is. It takes courage to expose yourself like this, and it shows that you are a strong woman who isn't afraid to open up to others, and I feel like I know you just a little bit more.

    Praying a shield of peace around you tonight!

  7. That's funny...I was just at Julee's house and I told her I met you at the retreat and that I thought you were nice and friendly and outgoing. You seem to enjoy life. I felt weird yesterday too. Maybe it's back to reality blues. The retreat was fun and I'm glad to have met you.