Do you ever wanna just curl up in a ball and hide, because you have said or done something dumb?
Im pretty socially awkward.
I say dumb things all the time.
I say to much all the time.
Or I dont say anything at all.
I try to hard to be accepted, then pull away cuz I feel dumb.
I dont know that I said or have done anything recently, but I just have that feeling like I did.
People often think Im snobby, stuck up or upset, this is because when I dont feel comfortable around other, I shut down. This happens especially with groups of people who already know one another or when they are close and Im an outsider, not in the "click".
Its so funny how life is always related to "high school" when HS was only 4 years of our life (for most, more or less for others) What an impact it has on us, and our lives of 80 years (again give or take).
I guess at this moment I feel over taken, over whelmed and just a bit defeated by life and friends in general.
So if Im missing on FB or other social groups, Im feeling down.
Im sorry Im a crazy preggo lady!!! CRAZY!!! :o)
This is also probably the enemy attacking me where I feel weakest as I just came back from a retreat, where I focused on God. He is trying to tear me down.
I will try to write an overview of the weekend soon.
Thanks for listening!